Life is exciting right now. “Exciting” tends to have a positive connotation, but that is not necessarily so. Along with what is happening in the world with so much up-in-the-air, I have much up-in-the-air personally . I am really trying to do the art thing, and it seems like I might be able to get it going. Excitement and worry all tied together.

I am able to slow down right now, get back to my inquisitive roots. I feel curiosity piquing again. I am starting to remove myself from the braindead drawl of a unfulfilling routine. It is indeed exciting.

Hi. I am back at it. Getting serious this time. I want to have money doing something I enjoy. I am more disciplined. Turing 30 this year. Ready to hustle for things I want in life. Hopefully this site actually becomes worth something and I can actually use it to support myself.

I found out fairly recently that I have a unspecified liver tumor. I still dont have answers other than our healthcare is BAD. Another MRI end of Aug, so until then I will put my effort into this.

Cool. Going to continue making and channeling my energy,

I haven’t written on this for….more than a year. Its been since August of 2020 I think? Its currently January of 2022…

Corona is still here and is still a dumpster fire.

I am in a complete mental block when it comes to jewelry, and art in general really.

Not in the mood to make. Not inspired.

I am climbing alot. I think there will be updates about that, more so than anything art related on this board.

I am growing more and more weary. I want to be outside. Hiking. Climbing. Not stuck in a black box all day.

This time in our lives has been eye opening when it comes to why-do-we-do-these-things-that-we-do-not-enjoy.

Oh wait. Because we need money. Rather, we are told we need money to live, and are told at a young age you must go to college, get a job, go into extreme debt at 18 years old, so that you can make something of yourself after you go to school. Sign the next 20 years of your life away so that you can struggle to make money in your field. Prey on the ignorant barely-adults.

Its a load of bullshit to keep people working and not getting anywhere for the best years of their lives, while the rich roll around in their splendor. I see this everyday, and I am dead sick of it. You have no choice because you are paying the thousands upon thousands of dollars that you now owe to some random company. You pay thousands of dollars a year for your loans to go down a couple of hundred.

I am stuck. How the fuck am I supposed to get out?

I just want to be outside.

Welp, hi.

Life is weird, chaotic, and unpredictable.

It seems like everything that is happening is long time coming, and hopefully, by educating ourselves, accepting, and taking the opportunity to change things in this moment, we will change things for the better, learn, and grow.

I haven’t been making much. I’ve been absorbing. There is always the evaluation/research stage of the creative process, and I need to make sure that I am realizing that this is what this is. A time of transition, to evolve my work and get further to the truth that I would like to encompass in my work. It is as productive as making work is; sometimes even more productive. I need to be less harsh on myself for taking the time to process.

I felt the need to journal/blog, because I have not in a while. I am still unemployed, but thankfully I am mostly fine and I am healthy. Things to be thankful for. My family, and friends (knock on wood) are all healthy or recovering, as well. For that I am extremely thankful.

Ta-ta for now. I hope I will be writing again soon, and making more soon as well.